Wednesday 14 July 2004

is there anybody in there?

Heather asked me if I was still feeling nauseous and how I was feeling in general. I should be thinking, "I feel grand! This pregnancy thing is like a walk in the park! Lucky, lucky me, I don't have my head in a toilet! Wheeeeee!" but instead, I feel like it's not normal to feel okay. I simply don't feel pregnant some days - more often than not lately - and on the most part, I don't have many symptoms. It's like I'm still me, but fatter and a bit more tired.

I wish someone would let me know that the baby's okay, even if it just means hearing a heartbeat. As the days go by, I am becoming far more excited about becoming a mother, which makes me far more nervous about losing the baby. (I hate that phrase, by the way. It sounds like I'm going to misplace our child under the sofa cushions.) The midwife is supposed to see me at 10 weeks, but I've yet to hear from her. So in the meantime, I have to assume that everything is okay as long as I'm not doubled over in pain and/or bleeding.

It's going to be a very long two weeks.

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